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To: afriend@hotmail.com
From: hyena@yahoo.com
Subject: happy birthday

okay, so all of a sudden you are twenty three and you notice that you are still fighting off living the life you are "supposed" to live. you know, you don't show to work exactly on time and you don't have monogamous boy-girl relationships. you are still dreaming the big dream. you are still young, and it is still okay to be idealistic. but then you start noticing all these older people who you always thought of as complacent are still living life to the fullest. that's when you realize that thirty is not too far off and complacency's only a state of mind.

-hyena-

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To: hyena@yahoo.com
From: afriend@hotmail.com
Subject: automation

I am glad that you wrote. I was starting to think you might be upset with me. Honestly. I was going to write and ask. I know you are busy, but I just miss you and my feelings of being disconnected from your life turned into insecurity. we are all just so busy. I think it is because of everything we can do. we are connected to the world through our keyboards. we never even have to go out of our homes if we don't want to. we can study, work, order food, order videos and whatever other kind of entertainment we want from baby toys to porn on the net; and we keep in touch with our friends all from one chair in one room. And we can do more of it, as a result, feel the pressure to do more of it. How do we develop community, how to balance work and play, inedependence and companionship, computer screens with compassionate hugs? I think i am just missing your arms around me.

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To: afriend@hotmail.com
From: hyena@yahoo.com
Subject: long lost e-mail!

i hate when that happens. i just wrote you a really long e-mail and it was brilliant and everything (like everyone thinks their mind ramble is). but then, when i went to send it, without having saved any of it, this mesage came up saying time ran out and so the message is lost to cyberspace. uugghh...